ali_griffiths

hey...honest opinions please!?!

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 09:07:25 GMT

guess my weight??!

I'M 5"1.

righty ho.

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 15:09:06 GMT

24 HOUR FAST.

time started ; -

12:00 AUGUST 15TH.

time compleated; -

12:00 AUGUST 16TH.

wish me luck ;]
x

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 04:35:56 GMT

General
Age?
15.
Height?
5'1.
Weight?
i'd rather not say tbh.
Lowest Weight?
Urgh.it's so far away.it's painful to talk about.
Highest Weight?
14 lbs.
What weight do you want to weigh?
0 lbs.quite litrally.
What eating disorder do you have?
anorexia.

In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?
omfg.it vairies SO much.
Do you throw up your food on occasion?
oh yes.
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?
keira knightley.
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?
no..
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?
mhm.about being "too thin".it's not true though.
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?
oh indeeed.
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?
not lately but i used to always overuse them
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?
yes.
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?
yes.
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?
no.
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?
yes. i have on and off.it's too hard and painful.and pointless though.

Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?
yes.
What part of your body would you change?
what wouldn't i change?
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?
0.
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?
yes.
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?
yes.
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?
yes.

Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?
no.
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?
yes.
Fat grams?
YES.
Calories?
YES.
Are you often tired/fatigued?
yes.always...
Do you feel more energised after eating food?
no.never.
Do you eat meat?
hmpht.
Do you eat your food in a certain way? ie cut it up into small pieces, etc.
yes.
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?
yeah.
Have you ever thrown up blood?
i have.
Is your heart bpm above 49?
i don't thinkso.it wasn't when i was in hospital anyway.
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?
yes!

Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?
yes...
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?
i am fully supportive.
Do you have any other mental disorders? ie Bipolar, BDD, etc.
yes depression, BDD....etc.
What's your favourite food to eat?
god.....urgh.
Favourite drink?
diet pepsi.
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?
sometimes.
Do you want to
recover?
yeah.but i'm too afraid of putting weight on.

hmpht.

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 23:44:45 GMT

I've gained.and i went fucking mental...
i have to go weigh myself now..since i came out of hospital.
and it's always a really bittersweet day.
that's not happened in such a long time though...urgh i lost it....
like litrally...i dont think that i've ever behaved like that before,
i've not had anythign to eat today at all though.
this gain's just made me realise how much i want to be thin.
so i'm just going to have to work MUCH harder.
i wonder how long it'd take to lose about a stone?
what d'you think?
hows everyone tonight?
x

urggggggghghghghg.

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:08:47 GMT

I wish i were dead.

FUCK.

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 12:09:22 GMT

urgh..yknow sometimes..
when you just....want to crawl out of your skin?
yeah...

fuck .

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 11:53:04 GMT

at what point did you realise that this was getting silly?
i was meant to go into town...to get a new piericing with some friends today.
but i lied to them and said i couldnt go because i felt to fat to go out in public..in daylight.
wtf?
what the actual fuck?
this isnt the first time something like this has happened.
fuck it.
i WILL go out tonight.
i wont drink...but ill go see an ex.
whom im trying to sort things out with.
hows everyone else doing?
x